Today's post isn't strictly about makeup. It's about finding what makes you happy. Doing people's makeup just happens to be what makes me happy, but I didn't figure that out until I was 24.
Growing up, it was drilled into our heads that we had to graduate high school, go straight to college, graduate in four years and then we'd be set with a job. Well, that didn't exactly work out for me.
At 18, I thought I knew what I wanted to do with my life. For years, I had wanted to be a news journalist. So naturally I went to college right after high school and studied Broadcast Journalism. I made it 3 years before dropping out the first time. I mean, I had other personal issues going on in my life that contributed to my dropping out, but I went to a different school the next semester and ended up dropping out again. My heart just wasn't in it. Yes, I still had personal issues, but I think if my heart was really in it - if I really felt passionate about this career and where I was going to go with it - I could have worked it out. But I just didn't care enough.
Maybe it was because I was 21 and wasn't ready for real life. Maybe it just truly wasn't what I was meant to do. Maybe if I had been a little more put together at the time, I would be giving you the latest news on CNN right now. I'll never know if I could have been a great journalist if only I had given myself the chance, but I think if that was the direction my life was meant to go, I would have done it somehow. It's okay to fail, as long as you keep going.
I feel like we push kids to know what they want to do so early in life. It took me until age 24 and dropping out of two colleges to discover what I feel I was meant to do, and I still feel like 24 was pretty young to have figured it out. That's a lot of pressure - on top of social media being in our face constantly so we get to see the highlights of everyone's life and feel like we're being left behind. I have peers who seem to have it all together. They had stable, salaried jobs at 22. At 22, I was working 5 or 6 days a week - 4 of those days being doubles - as a server, just trying to get by. I was a college dropout - two little words that make your entire future seem doomed. I was lost and had no idea what I was going to do with my life.
One day I'll write about exactly how makeup became my passion, because it's a bit of an interesting story, but just know that when I finally figured it out, I felt at peace. I felt aspirational. I was meant for great things and nothing could stop me. So for maybe the first time in my adult life, I put my nose to the grindstone and got to work on accomplishing my goals.
If you don't know what you're meant to do and you feel like you're being left behind, you're not alone. We are all just winging this as we go. So what makes you happy? What gets you so revved up you couldn't imagine your life without it? If sitting on the couch watching Netflix is your answer, well I'd say maybe try a new activity once a week and see if you discover something else you love. Or hey, you could start a blog reviewing all the shows you watch, or maybe create a website matching people up with shows that they would like based on their personality! You never know what could work out until you try. The important thing is: don't give up. I truly believe if you are head over heels passionate about something, you can find a way to make it work for you and earn a living. Many people just give excuses and you know, maybe I'm generalizing too much and maybe there are certain dreams out there that are not profitable no matter how you spin it... but this life is all you have. As cliche as it sounds, you get one life and you gotta make the most of it. It's okay to not know what you want to do. Don't feel rushed to figure it out, but when you do find it, it's going to feel like you can accomplish anything - and you can!